I’m Carol Robson and I live in Rotherham in South Yorkshire. I accepted place at the University of Sheffield when I was 53 and after I graduated in 2004 with a BMedSci (Hons) in Health and Human Sciences, after which my life changed for the better.
I have previously been involved with Equality and Diversity work to help the LGBT community and I also enjoy working on issues for older people especially the older Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual and Transgender community through my involvement with Age UK.
I really hadn’t done much writing, apart from my time at University and especially poetry before 2009, hence writings from a late starter. I had penned a couple of poems several years earlier and a performance poet friend encouraged me to write some new stuff which might have relevance to my life and try out at an open mic event which went very well and I’ve since appeared at many more. It is great to hear that people love my poetry and my life has been enhanced by the many friends I have made through the performance poet side of my life.
I published my first collection of poems Words of Darkness and Light towards the end of 2012; Amazon http://tinyurl.com/93j4khd I’ve also been published in several anthologies and literary journals, which include Route57 University of Sheffield Literary Journal and the Australian LGBT literary journal Polari Online.
My poetry is very eclectic and it covers a wide range of subjects which includes poems about Mental Health, Domestic Violence, Gender, Yorkshire, LGBT, Social Comment, Humour and Demons. Apart from my involvement with the Transformations project, I’m also involved with Hidden Perspectives (Bringing the Bible Out of the Closet) project: http://hiddenperspectivesfest.wordpress.com/about/
I’m looking at the biblical narratives on homosexuality and homophobia and writing contemporary poetry for a set ‘Gay Biblical Whispers’ which I’ll be performing at the Hidden Perspectives event at the Showroom Workstation in Sheffield on June 1st.
I came, I went, I’m here again
Not the same, different, but still me
Was happy, but sad
Looking for answers, afraid to ask
Alas! hidden behind the mask
Moving in a life with those I love
Yet! no real friends, fear behind the mask
Acquaintances only, which is so sad
A partner and children I so dearly love
Yet! still hidden behind the mask
Years fall away
The hiding stays
Fear of exposure
Hurting those I love
Who is really hurting
Behind the mask
Angel of death beckoned
It was so real
Not like me
Still living a lie
Near death behind the mask
Guardian angel came and I clawed back
It was the time for the mask to fade
Gradually it falls away
However, the hurt and the pain stay
For those who mean so much to me
No longer a need to hide
Truly loved ones are by my side
The real me is flourishing now
The actor is no longer needed
No more mask
Here is the real me
Family, friends and soul mates
So dear to me
Their love for me, just being me
I came, I went, I am finally here.
© 2011 Carol Robson