“Art between HAPPINESS and MEANING” by artist Ann Supan (FreeSpace #2)

23 Apr


CONFUSED by Ann Supan 


“Art between HAPPINESS and MEANING”

” Unhappy men are all alike. Some wound they suffered long ago, some wished denied, some blow to pride, some kindling spark of love put away by scorn – or worse indifference – cleaves to them, or they to it, and so they live each day within a shroud of yesterdays. The happy man does not look back. He doesn’t look ahead. He lives in the present.

But there’s the rub. The present can never deliver one thing: meaning. The ways of happiness and meaning are not the same. To find happiness, a man need only live in the moment; he need only live for the moment. But if he wants meaning – the meaning of his dreams, his secrets, his life – a man must reinhabit his past, however dark, and live for the future however uncertain. Thus nature dangles happiness and meaning before us all, insisting only that we choose between them. ”  (The Interpretation of Murder by Jed Rubenfeld)

I interpret the word “insisting” on above quotation as an implication that even though nature may “insist” for us to choose between HAPPINESS and MEANING, it does not mean that it’s “impossible” for us to have both.

I think that I cannot “always” have both HAPPINESS and MEANING at the same time but as long as I can find MEANING in my life, I know I’ll find HAPPINESS there too “at certain times” no matter how brief or long it lasts.

I know I am happy whenever I make a piece of art simply because I enjoy doing it…but what does that mean? It means…

– not having enough time for other things which may affect my relationship with others because they don’t understand my passion (this includes taking time to make something that is not actually paid for…some people with full time regular paying jobs just don’t understand that).

– giving people more reasons to criticize me.

– putting my ideas at risk because I cannot be an artist by just locking myself in a room drawing all day. Sharing art in the real word is, indeed, “a double edge sword.”

– doubting myself and my artistic abilities because, the truth is, I am not the “best artist” in the world (if there is such a person as “art is subjective”). I am not ashamed to admit that as I know for a fact that there are a lot of great artists out there (living or dead).

– always having the fear of “failing” at what I’ve always thought I am born to do in this world – to be an artist

Despite all this, if I must choose, I’ll choose MEANING as I’m certain that I cannot totally “just” be happy. I believe, just like any other feelings ( e.g. sadness, grief, etc.), HAPPINESS too shall pass…it always does. MEANING, on the other hand, is definite as it gives us purpose…the reason to live “no matter what”. I would rather know that there is a meaning for ALL  the things I’ve been through in life than to be a happy person by ignoring my past that I cannot “just” forget.

However, though I choose MEANING, I don’t live in the present “entirely” for the benefit of my future because for all I know I may die today. I honestly do not desire a longer life. I just want to “live” the life I’m given by learning from my past and doing the best I can with what I have until the day I stop breathing (period).

The SHADOWS series is a collection of portraits intending to show emotions  OTHER than those typical portrayal of  complete happiness and joy as I hope to convey those I believe are “meaningful” part of someone’s life.

As every piece is unique, to read about the description of each piece, kindly click on the corresponding Facebook link below ( “Playing with SHADOWS” album) so as to avoid making this blog any “longer” 😉


***The image (CONFUSED) I used on this blog is the 17’th piece of my SHADOWS series ****


Ann will be returning for her third FreeSpace on Thursday 21st May. She is one of the artists to be exhibited in our The Nine Realms  combined arts experience this  September in King’s Lynn, Norfolk.



What if?’ will always be the question Ann Supan tends to ask herself every now and then. She is an Engineering graduate who knows she wanted to be an artist since she was 10 years old. She is a Filipina visual artist who loves to draw and likes reading as much as travelling. Her main interest in art is portraiture as it is her ambition to express beauty and emotion on her work. She focuses mainly on likeness as her technique and style is simple. Recently, she has been making ‘dual portrayal’ portraits in order to make her work ‘thought provoking’ as well.

She specializes in traditional drawing in the categories of figure drawing, illustration and shading using graphite and charcoal as her main medium. She also likes to use different mediums as shown on her selective impressionistic pieces.

Through years of practice and experimentations her artworks now revolves around on both realistic and impressionistic form.



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7 Responses to ““Art between HAPPINESS and MEANING” by artist Ann Supan (FreeSpace #2)”

  1. jensenempire2551 April 23, 2015 at 6:03 pm #

    i love your post, truthfully grateful that you’re an artist..

    i too do love the process of creating art….

    • jensenempire2551 April 23, 2015 at 6:04 pm #

      Funny enough, most time than the finished product…..

      • Sketchbook0918 April 30, 2015 at 10:47 am #

        Thank you kindly for such compliment.
        I too, sometimes, feel the same way. The moment an artist declare an artwork “finished” somehow ends the fun & challenge that lead to it…yet that feeling of fulfillment is incomparable. Making art, as a whole, is indeed a “creative process” (beginning to ending) we should all master to enjoy.

      • jensenempire2551 May 1, 2015 at 12:17 am #

        For me! All started from a simple visit from another blogger…

        Now there are times, when i feel i really touch the creative child in my subconscious mind.

  2. stevenharris April 23, 2015 at 7:36 pm #

    Reblogged this on the planet harris blog.

  3. CutZy McCall April 26, 2015 at 12:06 am #

    Interesting. For me, meaning is happiness. Sometimes I go through a difficult time and a few friends will be very worried about me. When I emerge from my “meaningful” (lesson) state, with a happy attitude, they are surprised. Wasn’t I just very unhappy? Well, yes and no. I did experience unhappy emotions, but all along I was thinking “Yippee. I will write about this/paint this/fashion something meaningful from this/learn somelessons from this.” For me, that’s what being an artist is all about: celebrating the good, the bad and the ugly because it’s life going on and I feel lucky just to be a creative survivor.

    • Sketchbook0918 April 30, 2015 at 10:53 am #

      I appreciate your insight.
      You are a truly “creative” person…people, like us, who can find “joy” in creating even at our “direst hours” is quite amazing for others because not everyone (creatives and not) can do this.
      There are, indeed, those who creates to “live” just because they have this “unexplainable” feeling to create no matter what – to “survive”.

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